Pins & Needles
One of the worst feelings in the world is when your legs fall asleep. Due to my habit of sitting on my legs and feet I experience this daily. At first there is that sensation of numbness and you wonder if your legs are even attached to your body, it’s impossible to walk or really even move. Next come the pins and needles when your blood finally makes it back to where it should be. This starts out feeling weird. There’s really no other way to explain the sensation. It just isn’t a normal feeling. After this comes the pain. I don’t know why it hurts. I don’t know what causes it. But I do know it’s one of the worst feelings. You’re trapped in your seat or on the floor until it goes away. Sometimes you don’t think it will ever stop and that your legs will never feel normal again and right as you’re about to give up the feeling disappears. You stand up. Shake your legs out. And walk away.
I think we sometimes let this happen in our lives. We tuck ourselves away and we stay in a position that’s comfortable. After awhile we just totally lose all feeling of being alive and only experience the numb complacency of staying in one place for so long. Often we don’t want to move because we know that the pins and needles will set in and then the pain will come. We know that changing will hurt. It will feel awkward and it will be painful. We build up this wall and try to make ourselves happy with the numbness. That doesn’t work. You can’t be happy when you can’t feel anything. At some point it has to be better to feel pain than to not feel at all. We have to realize that the change will stop hurting and that we’ll be able to do so much more after the pain. We’ll be free to walk away. We’ll be free to live.